7/28/2010 - Day after surgery: Surgery went well. Doc thinks she got all of the damaged tissue and cells out before it infected my entire cervix with cancer. YAY! The great news is: they went with the LEEP procedure instead of scalpel, last minute, so my healing time has been cut in half. Unfortunately, this still doesn't help cut down medical costs and in fact might make them higher. I'm not sure, I won't get my bills for a couple weeks (one from the hospital surgeon, one from the anesthesiologist). I also still will be out of work for 2 weeks, so anything and everything helps. Here's the aftermath from yesterday's outpatient trip: IV Tape Marks Suck - Medical tag bracelets: The newest hottest accessory - Aftercare Paper. Would ya look at that? It says stuff like 2 weeks of VAGINAL REST and "vaginal bleeding of more than 1 pad per hour please call clinic or go to OB triage" hm... that must make those of you who were doubting me feel not so great now huh? Yea. Piss off haters, especially the stalker fuck who had the audacity to demand his donation back because I didn't play his little mindgames. How's that foot taste?

7/2/2010 - This is for those of you who are doubting the validity of my surgery and what it is for: Patient Surgery Instructions  What is a cone biopsy?

I was told on June 14 that I had cervical dysplasia and the core of my cervix had cancerous, as well as precancerous, cells. This is why they are having me in for a cone biopsy: to see the extent of the cancerous and precancerous cells.

UPDATE 6/30/2010! - I have scheduled my surgery. It will take place on July 27th. A few weeks away still, but felt I should let everyone know. I am still asking for your help as I'm not sure what the end cost will be. All the love, well wishes and donations have completely taken me aback. I have cried so much to know that you all care as much as you do. Thank you and I love you all. I'll be sure to update again when I know more.

A lot has been going on lately. Stress from working a regular job for a very short while, being away from my family and friends, being broke, not coping well lately.....

There's been a SHITLOAD of stress that I just can't deal with. The biggest stress I have had is due to the fact that I was recently diagnosed with cervical cancer. I am not stressing due to the fact that I have cancer, but rather the fact that I am going to have to be off cam (or at least 'off duty') for around 6-8 weeks. I will still be able to shoot some content for my site, but obviously nothing too much fun.

This of course means less money coming in, more stress, the cycle continues.

I am reaching out to each and every one of you. I really don't like handouts. Ask my friends, I don't like 'borrowing' money because I just never have enough to pay them back. So I just don't ask in the first place.

Unfortunately, this has left me in a very vulnerable place. With jobs being scarce as all fuck here (It took me 9 months to get an interview for a job) working outside the house will be hard, but I'm trying. What I am asking for now is any and all help. I currently owe $600 in medical bills and can't even get in to see the surgeon to have the cancer removed until I pay $100 upfront. Of course, I don't have this. Bills go from month to month, barely. And god knows what it's going to cost me AFTER the surger (for the surgery itself). Add that in with the lost wages of not being able to do my job, and I'm curled up in a ball, sobbing because I just can't deal with the stress.

So I'm asking for help. Every single penny counts and if you could donate, I'd love you forever. I just really need to get this taken care of before it kills me. Literally.

Thanks for your time.